Errol K. Catanes

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This is another test of the NextScripts Social Networks Auto Posting System.

If this had been an actual post, it would have been published within the desired parameters of the blogger. Due to his old age and limited knowledge of interwebs magic, he is currently having trouble with WordPress. It seems he is also so dense that he is unable to follow advice in the forums or guidance from YouTube. Therefore, he’s going to use the trial-and-error, shotgun method, also known as “spray and pray.”

Last time, he said something douchey like “you would have gotten a self-important recap of the week’s events, a pompous breakdown of military cultural elements, or an angsty, LiveJournal-esque soliloquy aimed to evoke sympathy but only provoke aggravation.” So far, he hasn’t been delivering on those things so, WTF?!!  Stop wasting time by going on what you say to your wife are “1-hour” hikes when they turn out to be “5-HOUR” hikes!  Therefore, you come back home every time with beat up feet and your angry better half on maniacal pregnancy hormones screaming your ear off about how you’re, well, beating up your feet.

Anywho . . .

Eventually, he hopes to get a grasp on his hiking addiction, so he can get back to blogging. (although most likely, he’s gonna go back to YouTube and watch more in-depth discussions of Westworld, like the one down below)

Hey!!  How about you conduct this test first THEN watch the video for the 1000th time?!

Besides, you have a concert to get to.

Repost of yesterday/this morning’s post

Due to technical difficulties (and by that I mean my old man knowledge of interwebbing) I wasn’t able to send a notification of my last post via Facebook and Linkedin.  Normally, I’d just write it off as a “d’oh!” but it’s something I really want to put out there for more eyes to read.  It’s an account of what I believe was a “micro-crisis” I had with this whole wanting to be a freelance writer thing.  If I were to summarize it in a GIPHY, it’d be something like this:

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click on the previous post below for more.  Thanks for all the love and support.

Mad Panic Monday aka What the Hell It’s Already Tuesday?!!

AAAAHHH!!!! (Image by Matt Groening of The Simpsons fame/knowyourmeme.com)

Ever since I’ve decided to go freelance, I’ve been stricken with fear wondering whether I’m doing the right thing, doing it at the right time, or going at it with the right intentions.  The reptilian brain in me is saying no no no no

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. . . and about 5 years ago, the highly un-confident, stricken with doubt me would have wholeheartedly agreed, dropped this precarious gamble and stuck to a stable but hum-drum life.  Now, I’m only slightly un-confident, burdened with skepticism, and trying to rationalize what could well be a significantly life-changing move on my part.  I just recently went through another significantly live changing event which I can sum up with this expression . . .

Cool. What do I do now? Hope I don’t ask the same question in about 3 months or so.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After I retired, or rather, towards the last days of my impending retirement, I intended on trying to get into an internship because I thought that would be a decent way of easing myself into the civilian workforce. However, I went about it in the most buckshot fashion I could think of. I applied to…

1. Capital Public Radio

2. Entercom

3. TEGNA

4. ABC

5. CBS

They were all jobs that fit with what I thought I wanted to do, to work in Public Radio (NPR, APM and their local affiliates) and network TV. (less on the reality shows and more on the newsroom) .  I should have stopped there, but instead I went full death blossom. (for all of you that don’t know what I mean by “death blossom…)

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So I also sent applications to…

6. Anheuser Bush – because brewery tour guide sounded really cool, except when you take their stupid timed survey and get blackballed if you don’t complete it in time . . . dicks.

7. Johnson & Johnson – not just a pharmaceutical company, but also a corporation with goals to guide and develop the leaders of tomorrow.  I apparently was not part of that goal.

8. Aramark – does anybody outside of the military know these guys?  I did, and I thought my being a veteran was a shoe-in.  Boy was I wrong.

9. Visit California – to my California residents, remember their commercials that featured Arnold Schwarzenegger when he was governor at the time,


      1. Yeah these guys. I wanted to work for these guys. #whatthehellwasithinking.

10. CDW – an IT company I had no reason to be interested in, except I was despera . . . I mean determined.

11. The State Compensation Insurance Fund or SCIF, a quasi-nonprofit insurance firm where I neeeeeever would have thought to work for, but when times are tough I supposed.

All these places were offering internships and student assistant jobs in public relations, marketing and sales, which all involved customer service – something I vowed never to get back into…EVER!

NOTE #1:  Now I’m not saying it’s beneath me.  It’s not.  I give props to anybody and everybody who has the tenacity to attract customers and close sales.  It’s just not my thing is all.

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And because I was so desper . . . I mean eager, I sent resumes and cover letters to…

12. UC Davis

13. Sacramento State University

14.  Los Rios Community College

15.  Solano Community College

Because I really wanted to embrace my past narrative of “supporting educational institutions who educate and inform our communities,” as an administrative assistant, which basically code for secretary!

NOTE #2:  Again, I do not mean to disparage or demean this line of work.  Admin is more than filing papers, taking phone calls, making coffee and picking up the boss’ dry cleaning, as is stereotyped in movies and television.  Again, it’s not my cup of tea ok?

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However, after I had done so much grunt work on the job search front that I discovered a flaw in my approach.  But first some context.

I attended what was called the Senior Executive Workforce Transition Workshop, a 3 day course that helped prepare high-ranking, executive level personnel to continue their career outside of the military, or at least that how it was advertised.  There, I thought I learned innovate ways of finding, applying, and securing jobs, or at least I seemed like it to someone who hasn’t had to find, apply and interview for a job in 20+ years.  I was really entranced by how this workshop touted this “under-utilized” website that guides you step-by-step on how to write great cover letters and resumes.  And sure enough, I paid the subscription fee, used it to churn out a “variety” of cover letters and resumes and sent them to all the organizations I just mentioned.

Out of the 20 cover letters and resumes I sent, I got 3 calls for a phone interview.  Out of those 3 interviews, I got one offer, from my last preferred employer, the SCIF.  Was I really that desperate (yes, desperate) enough to take the job?  If I did, I’d be working there now and probably be blogging about how this is too much like my old job, except without the uniform, the breakneck ops tempo and the looooong hours.

Then I saw an eye-opening, Linkedin endorsed video of a recruitment coach by the name of J.T. O’Donnell who had newer and better career searching concepts in Work It Daily.  It was there that I found out . . .

  1. My shotgun method of “applying” for jobs sucked
  2. My methods of writing cover letters and resumes sucked
  3. The website I used to write those resumes and cover letters didn’t necessarily suck, but the way I used it did

Basically, I thought I was clever by cutting and pasting the website‘s canned statements to write my professional summary, work experience, and additional information.  I thought that was what tailoring meant and I could do that for any job.  I thought wrong.

So, here I am now blogging about how I screwed up my whole job finding process and didn’t course correct until it was too late.

But was it too late?  Technically it isn’t.  I can still resume my job hunt using the lessons I learned from Work It Daily.  But it was around the time I got the rejection from CAP Radio (for a Marketing internship no less) and the SCIF job offer I turned down that I went into introspection mode, questioning whether I wanted to go back to the 9 to 5 again.  My rational brain scoffed and said. “What are you crazy?  Yeah!  It’s a stable job with a stable paycheck that can greatly supplement your current pension.  Why wouldn’t you go back to tried and true?”  Then I remembered Ms. O’Donnell’s tips on choosing the right career…

She basically asked, “What type of a role is work going to play in your life story?”  Did I want it to play a supporting role, the lead role, or the whole movie? (start the video at 1:03 if you want to know what I’m talking about) I thought about it, and I categorized all my past and possible future roles like this:

Job Secretary (lol) Brewery Tour Guide Sales Rep Marketing Rep
Career Aircraft Mechanic Cryptologic Linguist Management Consultant
Calling Writer

Then it hit me.  The voice in my head that that sang my love for stories and writing never stopped.  The volume’s been turned down for quite a while, but it was always in the background whispering…hypnotizing…enticing…

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Or maybe that’s just delusion guiding me to ruin.  Whatever the case, I was convinced to pursue my calling as a writer.  And to complicate things even more, I’ve decided to become a freelancer writer!

Yey!

Time will tell if this is another phase, (because this isn’t the first time this happened, a story to be told at a later time) but I really don’t want it to be.  I’m aware of the uncertainty and risks associated with this calling, or at least I think I am.  I suppose all I can do is stay frosty and continue along this path, and rebrand myself as the eponymous Sugar Freelancer!!

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P.S. It is not lost on me that freelancing also requires skills in public relations, marketing and sales, all of which involve customer service, as well as organization communication and *sigh* customer relations, all of which involve administrative work.

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Real supportive Mr. The Most Interesting Man in the World.

 

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If this had been an actual post, you would have gotten a self-important recap of the week’s events, a pompous breakdown of military cultural elements, or an angsty, LiveJournal-esque soliloquy aimed to evoke sympathy but only provoke aggravation (like with this test).

 

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Wanderlust Wednesday: Sedona vacay (part 2)

“Wow Even the rocks in Sedona meditate!”
― Ilchi LeeThe Call of Sedona: Journey of the Heart

It’s about time I continued this.

In part 1, I briefly talked about how skeptical I was when being told that a trip to Sedona is a magical, mystical experience, and how I never would have gone there if it weren’t for my Japanese wife.  What almost ruined it for me was the decision to drive the grueling 12 hours from Vacaville, CA to Sedona, AZ, as show below

Maybe next time, we’ll fly.

Now I don’t have many pictures of the drive down because:

  1. Erumi took most of the pictures of the drive and I still haven’t taken copies from her iPhone (combination of lagging and barriers of communication; she has yet to understand the concept of sharedrives, and I have yet to fully explain it to her in my meager Japanese)
  2. Once you get past San Jose, there isn’t really much to see until you hit Sedona.
  3. Driving 12 hours when you haven’t driven 12 hours in a loooong time does not really put you in a touristy mood, not me at least.

However, I do have a screen shot of the insane route we took as we were driving the last 33 minutes to our destination

That drive was both exhilarating an scary as fuuuuu…

So, before we made our way to Sedona, we had to reserve lodgings for the 3 day, 2 night stay.  As old fogies, we looked at potential hotels or motels in the area.  But then again as old fogies, we thought, how about we try this Air BnB thing these young people are talking about.

(Note:  we aren’t that old per se, but our sensibilities and grasp of new technology, definitely)

So we went big with our first ever Air BnB reservation.  And I’ll tell you what, we set the bar for our next one pretty high.

I’ll tell you more about it in Part 3 of our Sedona vacay, once I figure out how to get those photos from my wife’s phone.

Man we’re technologically old!!

Weekend Wrap-up: #OMG

(Shout out to Angela Boney-Pfister for calling out the confusing format.  I don’t know if I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, I welcome any and all critiques on this site.  I won’t get mad, I promise . . . unless you’re a spam-bot or a troll.)

Hello friends!  These are my highlights of the week.  From bombshells to epiphanies, here is what occurred from May 28 to June 3.

Monday

So, how about we start with the bombshell…

 

#omg #omg #omg!!! #itsforrealnow!! #sevenweeks #whatnow?

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Happy Memorial Day 2018!!

Tuesday

The last time I went to Habib’s Famous Kabobs in Vacaville was Sept 2016, about two days after I just PCS’d (Permanent Change of Station…I really need to get working on explaining those Military Acronyms, don’t I?) from Kadena Air Base, Okinawa to here.  The food was excellent now as it was then. (and I still have them on my “to review list,” fuuuuuuuuu…)

Wednesday

#westworldwithdrawals

Thursday

#whysoserious #srsly

Dear past Errol,

Stop being a drama queen.  You’re better than that now.  #yourshitistogether #chillout

Friday

What?!! I get dramatic again?!!  So, here’s a follow-up to that post.

First, I can’t put my finger on it, but I’m pretty sure the whole “first, second and third whatever” came from somewhere.  But you still are an asshole.

Second, I don’t think there is a “secret technique,” you just do what you do and hope you don’t screw shit up too much.

Third, fuck being the next Stephen King , Bob Woodward, or  Perez Hilton.  See above.

You just freaked out because you were supposed to get paid today and you didn’t.  Come to think of it, you wrote this at 12:39 in the fucking morning!!  Unless you’re Jonathan Wandag, no one is usually in their right mind at that time.  Take it from the future you.  When you woke up the next day, your bank account got a little bigger.  KKTHNXBYE!

Oh yeah, and this happened…

#10bookcovers10days #whoreADSnowadays #whoREADSnowadays

Was it just me or did #whoreadsnowadays read like whore ads nowadays at first, second and third glance . . . THAT’S IT!! I REMEMBER NOW IT WAS F. SCOTT FITZGERALD IN “THIS SIDE OF PARADISE!!” (If you’re confused, see the second line below Friday)

Saturday

Anyway, so I started the book each day for 10 days Facebook posts and I started with:

Other than that, I’m pretty sure this was an uneventful but relaxing day.  I guess I could say I ate leftovers from Panera Bread and Wah Shine Chinese Restaurant, but that’s pushing it.

Sunday

And, I took a second crack at the UC Davis-Stebbins Cold Canyon Nature Reserve hiking trails, but I changed so many variables that I got winded fast at the 1 km mark.

 #igetityousucked #geez

Like I said, I did a morning hike instead of the usual afternoon, it was my second time on the trail so didn’t quite know it yet, the summer heat bogged me down as opposed to the spring breeze picking me up, and uh, yeah, it sucked.  Normally, I get my second wind on the hike back, but I dragged ass until about the 5 km mark, which was pretty much the home stretch.  The trails here are definitely more challenging than in Pena Adobe and Rockville Hills.  This will be good practice for when I eventually hike Yosemite and Lake Tahoe.

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 #Shutupayoface!!

Wrap-up to the Wrap-up

  • I’m having a baby. Holy shit!!
  • I’m gonna have to set up some foundations for me to be a freelance writer. It’s funny because prior to this epiphany, I finally got a job offer after months of unanswered resume responses and rejection calls after interviews.  I’ve got the resources, now I just need to use them.
  • I’M HAVING A BABY!! HOLY SHIT!!!
  • Time to get used to this new trail, and new time of day to hike (and possibly work out). Overall, it’s better for me anyway to start in the morning, when it’s not blazing hot outside.
  • Welps, it looks like it’s time to restructure my priorities come next year (and by restructuring, I mean kiss my videogame time goodbye. QQ)

 

P.S. West World Season 2 Episode 7 Whaaaaaaaaaa…

Writing so I don’t forget to write

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“One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple.”
–Jack KerouacThe Dharma Bums

Yes Jack, I couldn’t have put it better.

So this is either a filler for myself to keep this blog thing going and/or a spark to light a fire inside of me to keep writing about something . . . ANYTHING!!  It’s hard not to make excuses on why I haven’t written anything, but it’s just as hard to take care of everything else in my life before I do start putting words on paper (or in this case, computer?  digital?).  So then the argument comes up again which says, “If you were really serious about this writing thing, this would be your first, second and third priority.”  First of all, the asshole who came up with that sentence should go f*ck himself.

(I wanna say it’s not me, and I have this nagging feeling that it’s not, but Google said otherwise, so I’m more than likely the asshole who should go f*ck myself)

Second, if there is a secret technique that allows me to take care of my pregnant wife, attend and finish my schoolwork, hustle for a part-time job because retirement pension alone isn’t cutting it…

(although I could make the argument that along with my Post 9-11 GI bill housing allowance, I should be ok, but I’m not gonna.  I’d rather not have to worry about whether my family has enough money to spend per month)

… continue a strict (and I use that term loosely) exercise regimen because:

  1.  I made a quasi-bet/shared endeavor with ArnoldWeber” Basingat to lose a significant amount of weight by the end of this year,
  2. The “jokes” and “pokes” of my wife about my portliness is starting to get to me,
  3. I’d really like to get as close to early 2000s me back in the day…

 

Exhibit A

…and after all that gather up the energy and creative juices to spit out some insightful or entertaining bit of printed composition, I’d like to know it.

And third, perhaps I’m really not prioritizing my writing to be my one and only focus.  Maybe I should devote less of my attention to my family, my education, my way to make ends meet and my choice to look and be healthier, and more to honing my “chosen craft.”  So what if I run the risk of alienating my wife (and soon to be child), failing school (and losing out on that veteran benefit I mentioned earlier), worrying about having enough funds to take care of your alienated wife & child, and getting fat, out-of-shape and going the way of your ancestors via heart attack? It’s the sacrifices one must make for the art.  If that’s what it takes to become a successful writer, then maybe I should rethink my motivations.

But I’d like to think there’s a way to take care of all my responsibilities as a devoted husband, (future) loving father, dedicated student, responsible breadwinner and health-conscious individual AND successful writer.  I’ll just have to tweak my understanding of what “successful” means.  Do I want to be Stephen King the writer successful?  Do I want to be Bob Woodward the journalist successful?  Do I even want to be Perez Hilton the blogger successful?  Or should I just keep on doing what I’m doing and juggling all 5 of these roles, counting the fact that I haven’t dropped the ball (too much) as successful?

Well as a rational human-being I’ll settle for that.  But I’d be lying if there wasn’t that dreamer in me who wants to reach those heights.

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You know what?  Shut up, smart me!

Weekend Wrap-up: Priorities and Job-hunt Woes

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Prologue

Well ok!  Here’s to another week done and I’m actually blogging this time.  Lots of twist and turns and character dev . . .nah just normal weekend wrap-up nonsense.  Here are highlights of the week from May 21st to the 27th.

Monday

Last week, I got phone interviews from the State Compensation Insurance Fund, Sacramento for the Corporate Communications internship and Capital Public Radio for the Marketing Internship.  Today, I put on a suit and went to the State Compensation Insurance Fund, Vacaville office and interview for the Student Assistant for Underwriting position.  I know, exciting stuff right?

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Also, because I had to get my priorities straight for the week, I turned to the wisdom of Mitch Hedberg who told me:

Other of his notable quotes:

“One time, a guy handed me a picture saying, ‘here’s a picture of me when I was younger.’ Every picture is of you when you were younger!”

He was the coming timing king with his stoner delivery and one-liner-esque jokes.  Rest in Peace man.

For a short sample of his set, click here.  #MitchHedburg #RIP #gettingmyprioritiescrooked

 

 

 

Lastly, it was a gym day and first song was:

@ the Travis Fitness Center, Travis Air Force Base, CA

Tuesday

First, a blast from the past courtesy of Arnold “He’s got an IMDb webpage?” Basingat.

Second, I’ve come to the realization that listening NPR not only makes you a hipster, but an aging hipster.

Then I went full retard , unlike Kirk Lazarus and hope that this commitment of being a writer sticks this time.

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After that, I was introduced by The PennyHoarder to #omconnecthour.  According to them, I can earn $300 a year to $400 a month, just by shutting all your lights and non-essential appliances at peak usage hours in your city.  I see no downsides to this, other than having to find something to do in Vacaville on a work day.

Finally, a shout-out to my Vietnamese peoples @ Saigon Pho, Vacaville.

You can see my TripAdvisor review here and Yelp review below

Read Errol C.‘s review of Saigon Pho on Yelp

Wednesday

For some reason, I broke from my normal apathy towards politics and posted this:

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It’s not that Nelson Muntz is political, it was my response when I saw this

Also, my quote of the day:

“Well we didn’t get the whole chocolate bar, but we got a Hershey’s kiss.”

Picture courtesy of www.allmovie.com

Why this quote?  Well, when I responded to an ad about a “WordPress Wednesday” event in Santa Rosa, CA I figured, why not?  Maybe I can learn something there.  An hour and 15 minute drive later, and there were only about 7 people in there.  4 were moderators, 3 (including myself) were attendees.  Only one of us knew what the speaker was rattling on about. . . me.  After the “seminar” was over, I started to chat with the lead guy. and he seemed pretty cool.  If he and his company, West County Media didn’t live so far away from me, I would’ve taken him up on his consultation.

Suffice to say, I didn’t get an education in web design (chocolate bar) but I did get a connection (Hershey’s kiss).

Finally, a shoutout to L&L Hawaiian BBQ, Vacaville, who’s chicken katsu and spam musubi’s are pretty good.

I gotta stop slackin and getting in my review on these guys.

Look how many awards they won!

Thursday

I saw this . . .


. . . and tweeted this


Because I’m pretty sure when the singularity happens, there’s gonna be less shaking of hands and more kicking of our asses.

Next, shout-out to Hot Stone Korean Kitchen, Fairfield, CA.

I probably should write a review for these guys too. But c’mon, you’re 51 of 204 places to eat in Fairfield, and that saying something right? (yeah ok, you guys are on my to review list)

And also, clicked “Interested,” then “Going” to Tiny Desk Sacramento sponsored by Capital Public Radio.  I’ll admit it’s less “I’m a hipster because I go to NPR Tiny Desk Concerts,” and more “Hey I want that Marketing Internship position and this is how I’m gonna woo them.”

Note: about a day later I get rejected.  Bummer.  Still planning on going to the concert though.

And then, yeyyy Hikeday!!

1st song was . . .

@Pena Adobe Lagoon Valley Regional Park, Vacaville, CA

Friday

Again, I don’t normally care about such things, but then I tweeted this:

“Whenever I think about our political climate, I see this:

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and hear Entry of the Gladiators by Julius Fucik (really? Gladiators are the farthest thing I think about when hearing this tune, Julius!  #differenttimes)

Or this

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and this song.

So hey, how about something more upbeat, like a hikeday?!!

Too bad it was a hike day fail.  I got kicked out by Lake Solano County Park rangers.  They were in the right though.  I did arrive pretty close to sunset.

Saturday

First, shout-out to Temple Coffee Roasters, Sacramento, CA

I’d like to say I’ve been slacking on posting my reviews again but dayam, they’re #1 in Yelp and TripAdvisor (ok whatever #4, still impressive) for Sacramento coffee shops.

Disappointed from yesterday, I decided to take another crack at hiking in the Winters, CA area.  I hyped myself up with . . .

And ended up in

Not too bad a day.

Sunday


For more context on this tweet see the May 23rd and 25th tweet above.  #omg #politics #raisingmybloodpressure #

Next, shoutout to Habib’s Famous Kabobs, Vacaville

Watch for my reviews of this awesome Afghan restaurant soon. . . if I don’t slack like normal.  However, due to their delicious but calorie packed #definitelynotketo meals . . .

GYM TIME!  1st song

@ the Travis Fitness Center, Travis Air Force Base, CA

Epilogue

So takeways from the week:

  1. I’ve got some reviews to post for L&L Hawaiian Barbecue, Hot Stone Korean Kitchen, Temple Coffee Roasters (as if they needed it lol) & Habib’s Famous Kabobs.
  2. I need to get my shit together on this #weightlossjourney.  i can’t just hike or gym just because I ate delicious but #ketonotketo food.
  3. I’m torn between continuing my hustle for a CAP Radio internship or just going into business myself, possibly through this blog.
  4. Or I could just focus on school and not worry about it until I get my degree.

Welps, I hope next week is just as exciting.  Tune in next time for . . .

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#srsly?

 

Time to go full retard!!

“Everybody knows you never go full retard.”

Well you know what, hilariously racist portrayal of a dude playing a dude disguised as another dude, I will go full retard, and by full retard, I mean embrace my calling as an aspiring, struggling writer.  There’s just one problem.

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It sure is Lisa.  It sure is.

Anyway, I suppose because I put the fact that I’m an aspiring blogger/writer on my Linkedin profile, that means this is really it guys.  I’m really gonna commit to it this time.  But I’ve been down this road before, several times.  I say I’m gonna write, then I write a story about flashy swordsmen and old perverts (a reference only Wandag knows.  Man I really need to get to know more famous people), then about halfway though the narrative, I just give up, and don’t go back to it until like 7-8 years later when I continue the imbecilic cycle.  But, you know, that was the young me.  The old me is wiser, less flighty and more industrious.  I’ve been in a job for so long that’s instilled in me an unwavering loyalty to my tribe, a reliable work ethic, motivated productivity, and comprehensive communication skills that I should be cranking out books like Stephen King on steroids.

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Are you saying “yup” I should, or “yup” you’re an idiot?  I’m gonna go with the latter.

But sadly, I still feel the same insecurities, self-doubt and laziness holding me back.  The only difference this time is, yes, I have gotten wiser.  I have developed a work ethic I never would have gotten outside the Air Force.  Hell, I wouldn’t have gotten this far on making a blog had I not gotten the financial security and hard knock life lessons the military has given me.

By the way, did you know that according to CareerCast, the #1 most stressful job of 2017 (and more than likely 2018 til infinity) is enlisted military personnel?  But that’s a topic for another time.

Going back to this commitment I’m going to make on writing, f*ck it.  I’m a writer.  That’s what I’ve been doing this whole time and every time I do it I feel fantastic, whether I finish a piece or not.  It’s time that I embrace the fact that I want my calling to be someone who puts words on paper and makes readers go “ooh,” “aah,” “oh,”

(Note to self: update your pop-culture references)

But yeah,

  • Step 1:  Say you’re a damn writer!
  • Step 2:  Don’t fall into this trap.
  • Step 3:  Find an audience/genre/niche

…and that’s my next step.  Who do I want to write to, and for?  About 32 days ago (which is 4/20 by the way, har har)  I wrote an outline of all my interests and experiences and they’re all over the place.

Suffice it to say, I have a lot of experiences I’d like to share with people.  It’s just a matter of me writing it in a way that people will find interesting, and finding enough people who find it interesting.

So here’s to going Full Retard, and making this a worthwhile calling.  Like Robert Downey Jr. said:

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…Or something like that.

Yeah this post every day thing might be harder than I expected

Oh, #firstworldproblems.

Maybe I’m being too hopeful?  Maybe I’m being too impatient?  Maybe it’s both?  Or maybe I’m just a big baby.  Whatever the case, my want to post something relevant everyday is continually being trumped by my need to, you know, do life stuff.  Or I might just be too lazy to carve time to do this.  There have been many times where instead of putting my creative efforts to this blog, or even doing homework for class (cuz I’m back in school yeah!), I binge-watch Youtube videos on Wisecrack, Screen Prism or TED Ed.  I suppose I could make the argument that I’m not lazy, I’m just not inspired, and I’m trying to look to these successful video essayist for inspiration.  I could also make the argument that I’m not focused, I’m all over the place, and I need to stick to a schedule and routine.

So until I can get my shit together, I’ll hold off on trying to dedicate this blog to praise and honor the U.S. military.  However, I still would like to get more experience on putting my thoughts into words, and I believe this is one of the best places to do it.  Once I get to a decent level of writing/blogging with an equally decent amount of readers, then I can properly dedicate a blog specifically on active duty, reserve, and veterans.  In the meantime, I’ll post what I can post.  If the material I want to post happens to fit the theme of the day I plan to post it, cool.  If not, I’ll just puke all my thoughts in to this thing until I get good, perfect my craft, and actually make a good living (or hell even a lucrative hobby) out of this thing.

This isn’t the first time I’ve bitched about this, haven’t I?  I’m sure this won’t be the last.  But as long as I bitch and write at the same time, I think I’ll be fine…

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Or not.

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